Garviel Loken

You know when i think of all the thing's i have seen and done, the place's i have been sent to fight all in the name of Queen and country, when i am left to contemplate, my past has a habit of showing me the memories i have tried so hard to forget.   Even now the true depths of evil in war one man can do to another make's me ashamed to admit, you can only hide behind order's for so long, because there will alway's come that day when you have to finally admit to your self, that you your self and anyone around you are capable of doing anything you have already seen, except only worse and on a much bigger scale, for in war the first casualty is alway's innocence and the innocent will alway's suffer the most.  When i kiss my son and smell his hair while he sleep's the face's of all the fatherless children that i and my collegue's are guilty of making haunt me with the same pleading eye's of any child no matter what culture they come from. I went to war because i was ordered too, and i have fought against many father's who did so to protect their home's and families and i am here now because i killed not for any other reason then to survive. In my own humble way i have come to two conclusion's, the first is, if there was no religion in the world i don't think we would all be trying to kill each other, and the second is history has proved a man fighting what he seem's as an invader will never stop fighting, as we all would to protect our families,it is a bloody shame then that war's are alway's fought by young men, on the order's from old men, safe in their comfortable chairs, behind their antique desk's, along long way from the actual bloody fighting. I hear all the time of how our leader's are so great and all they wan't is peace, well i can't help but think if they wanted it that bad there would be an end to the madness of war. Now i have no choice but to tell myself, there is no god because if there is, i am most surely bound for hell. Loken, staff sgt pathfinder, 2 para, B E F. Afgn9 Helmand.

Thank Fuck we pulled out

no more Afghan

no more dodgy orders

untill the next time xxx